I'm Traci and I am a crazy lady that will do almost anything for a laugh. I love the sound of other people's laughter and I hope someday that I will make everyone proud to know me :D
Me: I have been debating on sending you this message, mostly out of my own pride, but after yesterday, I feel I owe you an explanation and hopefully for you to see where we crossed lines. These past few weeks have been really hard for me. Many of the reasons are due to my personal life and I don't feel the need or duty to explain any of that to you. Just know that sometimes life sucks. Two, my biggest issue with you this past weekend was you touching me without my permission, even after I would tell you not to touch me. This wasn't a funny, haha, I'm mad at you thing, I wasn't, until you would poke me or touch me again. I asked you not to touch me because I didn't want to be touched, especially by males. Now before you lose your coat hanger, there is a reason for that, once again I don't feel it needs nor do I have a duty to tell you. Just know that I don't like people coming up behind me, touching me without my permission, or anything of that sort. There have been occasions, frequent in occurrence where someone has touched me in unwanted ways. That is all I am saying on that. So my word of advice is if someone tells you not to touch them, maybe you should listen. Also if you tell anyone about the message, the details within it, I will never speak to or acknowledge your existence again. This is something I don't talk to my family about, something that isn't brought up, something that I like to pretend never happened. Something that Andy talks to me about only if he has to, because he knows how strongly I feel about this. So please, if you have any level of respect for me, just don't say anything.
Kid in my social club: the ONLY reason i touched you was cuz you ignored me, your director when i asked to do do something. then you presided to cuss at. take that as you will.
Me: That is not true, there were times when I was sitting waiting for someone to come out and help me and you would come up behind me and grab my shoulder. The point is when someone says not to touch them don't touch them. See also I couldn't go in that room because I am allergic to hair spray, or really anything that sprays out of a can, which all of the directors knew, or I assumed they did. And I said one word in which case you pinched me. However you want to put that, pinching is never okay. Especially when I had already asked you and told you not to touch me. And I'm sorry I'm not a saint and I sometimes use language that has been deemed bad by society, but I would also like to add that it doesn't change from the fact that I asked you not to touch me and you continued to do so, no matter the reason.
Kid in my social club: *Sends a cat picture*
Me: That is not a mature reaction and if you don't want to take this seriously and just be angry and rude to me because I was dealing with things in my personal life, fine be that way.
Kid in my social club: im not being rude, but you should think of others around you as well
jesus first other second yourself last
and to tell the truth. if u dislike me you dont have to talk to me. im fine with that. but if you want to sit down and work this out i can try and find some time between my home work
Me: Think of others around me? I asked you not to touch me. I separated myself from the group. I did the show. I did everything I could to keep from falling a part in front of everyone. You want to tell me to put others before myself, because I do. You have no idea. I'm sorry that the show weekend landed on the year date of my being raped, I'm sorry that it landed on the year date of a loved one dying, and I'm sorry that I received a call and they want me to testify. I'm sorry that I snapped at you. BUT don't you dare ever accuse me of not putting myself last.
Kid in my social club: did you ever think about what i was going through? what the other director where going through? you separating yourself made it a lil hard to "direct" you most of all when you ignored me... now if you want to continue you this conversation you can meet up with me later but not on Facebook.
Me: Why meet up with you? So you can tell me how wrong I was to go through emotional trauma during your show? That I should have sucked it up and just pushed through it. Because what is any of that anyway when there is a show to be put on. Thanks Nate, I'm glad to see your colors. And the other directors worked with me.
Punk Kid in my social club: Glade to see your to friend!